• Chii

Forever Loved and Always Remembered

My mother transitioned into Eternal Glory last week and it has been one of the most difficult things I have ever had to deal with emotionally. My mother was a wonderful and blessed woman. She was jovial, sweet, kind, elegant, and above all selfless. I always dreaded the moment I would receive the call that my mom had passed away. The moment I would have to speak about her in the past tense. The moment I would not get to see her, hug her, or hear her voice again. The moment I would have to grief the loss of the woman that was dearest to me. But here I am. Nobody will ever understand what it feels like to lose a parent you had a close relationship with until they lose them. It's a unique experience and affects everyone differently.


During this time, God has been teaching me many new things. This experience has been my transition to a greater level of faith, growth, and maturity. Matthew 5:4 NLT says: "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." I am comforted knowing that my mother is in heaven with the Lord. I am comforted knowing that she is happy and at peace. I am comforted knowing that she truly is living in glory now and that we will meet again one day. Still, it hurts. Still, it's not easy. Still, I cry. Still, I mourn her.


In this season of grief, I've also learned a few things about friendships, relationships, and the things that matter in life. I'm so blessed to be surrounded by people who have understood that love is not just a four-letter word but that it is a four-letter action. I have seen many people come through for me and show love during this very difficult time. It made me realize that no matter what, I will be intentional about showing love instead of just saying it. I will live what the word of God says and not only quote it. This experience has taught me that in all things God loves, comforts, guides, and sees our efforts and will not only wipe away our tears but will cause the love of a few people to overshadow the disappointment that may come from others.


My mom lived a wonderful life. She endured hardships and was filled with sadness sometimes but overall her life is a testimony of strength, hope, perseverance, and love. She never gave up and found joy and happiness, even during the most difficult and trying times. I will always look up to her and will forever love and cherish her for who she was. She was the prime example of not allowing her past experiences to limit her future. Against all odds, she conquered through it all victoriously. Our relationship wasn't always perfect but the love we had for each other was. People say that you should make the best of each moment you have with a loved one because you never know if that might be the last time you get to see or speak to them. How true these words are and thank God I have no regrets about the time I spent with my mom. I let her know every time how much I loved and appreciated her for the wonderful woman and mother she was. Of course, I could have made a bit more effort, invested a bit more time, and showed her even more love and care. We should all strive to do and be better in every area of our lives but nothing can change how much I cherish the special mother-daughter bond we shared. Did I call her every day? No. Did I love her every day? Yes. There are so many beautiful memories I have of her that my heart is filled with gratitude. My mom will forever occupy a special place in my heart.


I'm so blessed for the time I had with my mother and I will always remember her for who she was - an amazing person, mother, and grandmother. Happy Mother's Day to you mom, I will always love you. The Bible says: "Beloved brothers and sisters, we want you to be quite certain about the truth concerning those who have passed away, so that you won’t be overwhelmed with grief like many others who have no hope. For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, we also believe that God will bring with Jesus those who died while believing in him." 1 Thessalonians 4:13‭-‬14 TPT

This is not goodbye but until we meet again, mom! You will be forever loved and always remembered ❤