My Heart Is Full
Before I started writing this blog post I was contemplating back and forth if I should give it the title "Nothing left to say" or "My heart is full". And as different as these two sound they are actually closely related. Sometimes I find myself speechless when I think about how blessed I am and how amazing my journey with Jesus Christ has been! There are not enough words to express my gratitude, appreciation, and love for the One who looked at me, dusted me off, straightened my shoulders, and told me: "You're not only good enough, you are perfect!".
Year after year, month after month, and day after day the Lord keeps adding and increasing the grace upon my life. Does that mean I don't feel stressed out, tired, sad, or upset sometimes? No. It means that my blessings always outweigh the bad stuff. What can I say about this past year... That's where the "nothing left to say" comes in. Not many words can describe how beautiful this new chapter God opened for me this year, has been. If you've been following me, you know that I am referring to being fortunate to experience the joys (and everything else that comes with it) of motherhood. And nearly 9 months in, I can say that it's been wonderful and a journey of victories and grace all the way. Apart from that, just thinking about the major milestones and achievements in my life and thinking about how far I already was on my birthday last year and how much more God added this year, is a miracle in itself. I didn't take steps of progress but leaps of progress in my relationship with God, my family, my marriage, my friendships, career-wise, and creatively.
And if you're wondering how I can just block out all the negative things that happened this year, I can tell you this. Yep, I'm totally aware of what's going in the world right now. In fact, on a personal level, I was hit with some of the most challenging things I ever had to face in my life. But does that change my destiny? Does that change who I am in Christ? Does that change what God has called me to do? Absolutely not! So, why would I focus on that and join the complainers and even go as far as saying that 2020 is canceled? My time can never be canceled. In fact, God has given me season after season and will continue to do so. Not giving in to the negativity doesn't mean you're oblivious to it, it means you live above it. I came out of every challenge wiser, stronger, and better - and I keep repeating that not to make myself feel better but because that's a reality! When you're in Christ, God will not just let you "survive" tough situations He will excel and improve you through them. The Bible says in James 1:2-4 (NIV): "Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
As I celebrate yet another year of my life that has catapulted me to another stage of greatness, I am just full of gratitude and give praise to God. "And God is able to make all grace abound toward you, that you, always having all sufficiency in all things, may have an abundance for every good work." II Corinthians 9:8 NKJV
My heart is full indeed.