The anxiety of being anxious
You have clicked on the refresh button at least ten times. You put away your phone and then pick it up again after a few minutes. "Maybe there is a response or an update now? There were 5 minutes between then and now and still nothing?? They always say be patient, be patient... Now is the time to be patient, right?" You put away your phone, bite your fingernails, and try to distract yourself with other things. Then there is a buzz. You rush to the phone again: "Oh, it's only a notification that the phone is running low on battery." You put the phone away again. More waiting.
If this scenario sounds familiar to you, then you are one of the many people who know patience per definition, yet so often choose to worry and be anxious instead. But are we really at fault? Often we cannot help this feeling of unbearable impatience. When we are expecting something and just cannot take waiting and being still any longer. Being patient should be much easier.
In this present age, everything is fast, instant and immediate. Nobody has time to wait anymore. There is fast food, the fast lane, and everything is speeded up. It is as though we have lost the ability to pace ourselves and to slow it down to enjoy the process of life instead of rushing through it and its various milestones. Finish school: done. Get a degree: done. Choose a career: done. Get a job: done. Find a life companion: done. Settle down, get married and start a family: done. Raise your children: done. So, what is the end of this story after everything has been achieved and all the boxes have been ticked? Does this sound like a fulfilled life? A life with purpose and meaning? While it is good to have goals and go through the various stages, what matters the most is making the time you have here on earth meaningful.
There is more to life than chasing from one task to the next. It is about leaving your mark and writing the unique story of your life. About the bigger picture. "You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden. No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father." Matthew 5:14-16 NLT
The mere fact that you are (still) here makes you special, thus don't allow time to simply pass you by but make the best of how you want to live and shape your life. This is an amazing opportunity that only comes once. Any moment that passes cannot be recovered, so make sure that you don't look back with regret but with the appreciation that you made the best of the time that you had.